In less than a month I have my final year exams, and although I should be studying, I couldn’t help but log on and post something. I can't believe my first year of uni went flying past me before I could capture the moment.
This year has been …. adventurous. I've been through all sorts of experiences, and as much as I'd like to say my life has changed, I still have to tell you that it was awesome year. Uni was a whole new experience, especially since I've never associated with non Muslims for long periods of time before. Now, I can't seem to find any Muslims at all. I guess that’s a good thing. I like the fact that I have the opportunity to meet new people everyday, and get to know other cultures and religions...
One thing I've noticed, however, is the isolation between me and some people at uni. A couple of months ago I was thinking of transferring to another university; one with a whole lot of Muslims that I have alot in common with, and one where I would feel more comfortable in. Now, I'm thinking against it. I realized that if I did transfer, I'd be taking the easy way out. That I'd be walking away from something I might not ever come across again. One of the reasons why I want to transfer is because I felt like the odd one out. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke and I don’t go clubbing – everything my fellow uni mates do. I guess you have to fall in the 'party animal' category to get along with them. Its not that I don’t talk to people, because people are very nice, but I can tell there's a barrier prohibiting any form of communicating other than formal-'don’t say anything to get yourself killed by this crazy muslim maniac psychopath-quickly get out of this convo and pretend like u need to go.' LoL, maybe not exactly like that, but pretty close I reckon.
Im afraid that if I do decide to stay, ill never feel as comfortable as I would when im surrounded by muslims who understand me. If I leave, I would never show the true side of muslims that actually cant be tainted by the media. I guess I still hold a little bit of hope that it would all get better, and that I would eventually feel like an accepted, proper uni student. Being a muslim wasnt an issue before, so why should it be now?
In the end, its not what I choose to do, but if the decision was the right one. I can only pray to God to guide me and make me stronger through all of this. For now, I shall think about passin my exams with flying colors, rather than facing this problem.
Wish me luck. :)
Salam
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Salam ya ukhti,
Nice blog. I understood your situation, cause I was facing this kind of probs last time. Even my country is Islamic based, but truly because mixed nations and religions, nothing much you can say about it. It's much more harder to face your Muslim friends at uni that acts such a non-Muslim. How terrible to see mukminah without their hijab, proudly act like non-muslim. I might say, it's better to see non-muslim with their attitudes, rather than seeing Muslim acting like qafir. Grab your opportunity to keep you always in iman's track, so that people will be inspired by you. You dun have to judge non-muslim with their acts, because it's normal act for someone that has no faith inside, without hidayat from Allah. Just let them be what they want, and dun stay away from them, be friend with them even without clubbing - alcohol etc. We are not God to judge them, we are a khalifah sent by Allah to perform our responsibilities and to act good based on Qur'an & Sunnah. Rasulullah s.a.w. also didn't reject Jewish 100%, qafir is still makhluk of Allah.. so, be always in this great manner of yours, until then Insyaallah, you'll harvest all the goodness you've done..
Wish u best of luck. Wassalam.
Good luck !
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